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emo mode (x_o).. January 21, 2009

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current favorite song: it talks about the death of a loved one..

tonight

(fm static)

i remember the times we spent together
on those drives
we had a million questions
all about our lives
and when we got to new york
everything felt right
i wish you were here with me
tonight

i remember the days we spent together
were not enough
and it used to feel like dreamin’
except we always woke up
never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much

tonight i’ve fallen and i can’t get up
i need your loving hands to come and pick me up
and every night i miss you
i can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin’ you, holdin’ you, holdin’ you tonight

i remember the time you told me about when you were eight
and all those things you said that night that just couldn’t wait
i remember the car you were last seen in
and the games we would play
all the times we spilled our coffees
and stayed out way too late
i remember the time you told me about your Jesus
and how not to look back even if no one believes us
when it hurt so bad sometimes
not having you here…

i sing,
tonight i’ve fallen and i can’t get up
i need your loving hands to come and pick me up
and every night i miss you
i can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin’ you, holdin’ you, holdin’ you tonight

i sing,
tonight i’ve fallen and i can’t get up
i need your loving hands to come and pick me up
and every night i miss you
i can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin’ you, holdin’ you, holdin’ you tonight..

all time favorite song about the death of a loved one:

one sweet day

(boyz 2 men)

sorry, i never told you, all i wanted to say.
now it’s too late to hold you.
cause you’ve flown away, so far away.

never, had i imagined, yeah, living without your smile.
feelin’ and knowing you hear me.
it keeps me alive. alive!

and i know you’re shining down on me from heaven,
like so many friends we’ve lost along the way,
and i know eventually we’ll be together.
one sweet day.

picture a little scene from heaven.

darling, i never showed you.
assumed you’d always be there.
i took your presence for granted.
but i always cared
and i miss the love we shared.

and i know you’re shining down on me from heaven.
like so many friends we’ve lost along the way.
and i know eventually we’ll be together.
one sweet day.

picture a little scene from heaven.

although, the sun will never shine the same, i’ll
always look to a brighter day.

yeah, Lord, i know, when i lay me down to sleep,
you’ll always listen, as i pray!

and i know you’re shining down on me from heaven,
like so many friends we’ve lost along the way,
and i know eventually we’ll be together.
one sweet day.

and i know you’re shining down on me from heaven,
like so many friends we’ve lost along the way,
and i know eventually we’ll be together.
one sweet day.

sorry, i never told you, all i wanted to say..

(i hope i wouldn’t be able to relate with the two songs one day though)

T_T

(whirl)windstruck.. December 5, 2008

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*sigh*

during certain instances, i refuse to think how years and years before (when i was still in that extreme naive phase called childhood, that is) i would perceive life as if it was simply a merry whirl of activities in which every ticking second would be as easy and enjoyable as ever..

but, now that i think about it, life is really more of an unpredictable whirlwind where at times you would just wander aimlessly with absolutely no direction — and often, just when you set your mind on something you wanted to achieve, (boom!) the whirlwind blows into an entirely opposite path..

i am as hapless now as a leaf carried by the violent winds..

help!

farewell tanka November 21, 2008

Posted by raincrystal in emo, literary thingy, love, musings, personal, poetry.
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scattered puzzle bits

used to being side by side;

wilted bunch of blooms

forgotten by you, by me —

how do we say our goodbyes?

tonight i can write the saddest lines.. November 18, 2008

Posted by raincrystal in emo, literary thingy, love, reviews.
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(pablo neruda)

tonight i can write the saddest lines

write, for example, ‘the night is starry

and the stars are blue and shiver in the distance.’

the night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

tonight i can write the saddest lines.

i loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

through nights like this one i held her in my arms.

i kissed her again and again under the endless sky.

she loved me, sometimes i loved her too.

how could one not have loved her great still eyes.

tonight i can write the saddest lines.

to think that i do not have her. to feel that i have lost her.

to hear the immense night, still more immense without her.

and the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

what does it matter that my love could not keep her.

the night is starry and she is not with me.

this is all. in the distance, someone is singing. in the distance.

my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

my sight tries to find her as though to bring her closer.

my heart looks for her, and she is not with me.

the same night, whitening the same trees.

we, of that time, are no longer the same.

i no longer love her, that’s certain, but how i loved her.

my voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.

another’s. she will be another’s. as she was before my kisses.

her voice. her bright body. her infinite eyes.

i no longer love her, that’s certain, but maybe i love her.

love is so short, forgetting is so long.

because through nights like this one i held her in my arms.

my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer.

and these the last verses that i write for her.

[the 1st time i stumbled upon this particular work by neruda, i could swear that my heart broke and i really wanted to shed buckets of tears so badly — not that i can relate though.. but awww, the said piece is probably one of the saddest love poems ever written in the history of history.. T_T]

PS: readthisreadthisreadthis..

a lot like love November 18, 2008

Posted by raincrystal in emo, literary thingy, love, personal, poetry.
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a single broken fork,

a couple of plastic cups,

lots of crumpled paper —

and you start to realize

that they’re all just clutter…

yesterday, they’re needed;

now, they’re useless.

and you squint at the same thought

because it’s a lot like love,

where one is left behind —

broken and utterly

useless.