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a take on laziness and “mandatory” readings… November 21, 2007

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… i’ve always assumed that i’m a bookworm — until i entered college, i guess… well, during my childhood days, i was one of the few youngsters who used to kill time by poring over stacks of books in the library instead of playing with my classmates… hmm… one of my early favorites were elizabeth and jessica wakefield (yeah, the sweet valley twins)… i like reading francine pascal since it’s actually really cute… i feel like i’m growing with the wakefield sisters… from sweet valley twins, i immersed myself in sweet valley high and yeah, you got it — sweet valley university…

there was also that phase when i was just so engrossed with horror stories — which is actually funny if you think about it… how in the world would i come to like the supernatural when i’m such a scaredy cat who can’t even go to the bathroom alone after watching (or reading) scary tales? R.L. stein’s stories were such a big hit for me along with the “goosebumps” and “are you afraid of the dark?” series (though they aren’t as spooky as i expected) and what else? yeah, i also liked edgar allan poe’s “the cask of amontillado” and “tales of mystery and terror”… his stories really display that aura of darkness which i assume is probably because of his experiences… trivia: the three most important women in his life died of the same disease… i just forgot if it’s the so-called romantic disease (you know, tuberculosis) or what…

so that was basically it… i thought i loved books… i’ve read lots and lots of them… from fairy tales to apple paperpacks to english and tagalog novels to harry potter… but now, it seems that i’ve just lost interest in reading… yeah… my bookworm days are over — i’m now called a photocopyworm… nyahaha… but seriously speaking, i’m really on the stage where i want to evade all of those “mandatory” readings as possible… come to think of it, i (well, not just me) have to read those lengthy and bulky photocopies in all my major subjects and they’re just so tiring… yeah… and i spend a lot of bucks on those photocopies… but duh, isn’t it a creative writing student’s job? and why did i choose this course in the first place if i don’t want to read? yes, i know… but i still have a hard time convincing myself that words are better than algebraic equations and all those algorithms… pathetic me… i guess i just have to read, read, and read some more… “sayang ang kwarta…” haha… but hey, i’m just lazy… yeah… maybe that’s it… i’m just super lazy that i often forget why i’m in BAE… of course, all those readings aren’t crap… i learn lots from them and perhaps, they might teach me the secret formula to being the next J.K. rowling and be wealthier than the queen of england… wahaha… so in that case, the bucks i spend and all my so-called sacrifices will eventually pay off… yey!

why am i writing this entry again? well… because i have nothing to do? nyahaha… that’s why i don’t make sense…

and why creative writing? November 17, 2007

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… so it’s just twenty minutes past ten — and there’s a heavy downpour outside… while many people would have preferred to stay home and bury themselves in their blankets, what am i doing here in the net cafe? well, to be truthful, i’m doing nothing — just staring at the computer screen… perhaps, organizing my thoughts? nyahaha… hmm… i’m just not in the mood to be wax poetic today… i can’t even write my first entry… yeah, i know it’s MY fault (i should have done this right after sir nino told us, i should have, blah blah)… but the damage was already done so here i go… i’ll just try to write a simple blog on why i’m in a creative writing course…

… perhaps, it would be better if i backtrack a little — just to give you a glimpse of the factors that triggered me to be in BAE… way back in high school — and well, in elementary, i’ve been part of our school paper and i’ve also gone to various journalism press conferences… at that time, i was always the representative when it comes to feature writing (i’ve always thought it was my forte) and i even became a delegate to the national schools press conference when i was a freshman… it was one of my greatest achievements ever considering the fact that i was just a first year student then… so at that time, i was serious when it came to writing and i really thought it was my passion…

… fourth year… that was the time when almost everybody in our batch took every entrance test in every university and then deciding after where to pursue their studies… so there i was, processing my UPCAT form and well, it was just so hard to decide what course to take — i would have picked psychology right away if i would enroll in UIC or other UP campus but, yeah, you got it… it’s not available in UPMin…

… i tried to ask for advice from my mother (though i was already planning to choose creative writing) and well, she talked me into choosing computer science — because it’s very much in demand, it wouldn’t be hard for me to find a job blah blah… and because mothers know best (well, just maybe), i took comsci…

… imagine my shock — not to mention trepidation, when i found out that i have to take a lot of math subjects in my course… uh oh… and i’ve always thought that computer courses don’t really focus on my most dreaded subject… yeah… math had always been my achilles’ heel… and i’m in no ordinary school! i’m in UP — the institution for the geeks and all the academically inclined students… but i really have no choice but to just, well, take the bull by the horns perhaps?

… i’ve gone through a lot of drastic changes during my first semester (sleeping during the wee hours of the night, poring over that thick algebra book and trying to make my mind understand complex equations, eating only a sandwich for lunch, etc, etc)… and what did i get after all those sacrifices? uhm, i’m overdoing it… haha… i’m not really as studious as my other comsci classmates… but hey, i tried to “swim” too… but well, life was unfair and i ended up “sinking”… in short, i failed my math 17 subject… so that was it for me… farewell computer science…

… yeah… so i guess destiny made way for a frustrated comsci student to be a budding writer… i’m in a much better state now since well, i have (or so i think) a passion for writing…

… i’m just hoping that my being a creative writing student would have a happy ending…

(forgive me for using all those dot dot dots at the end of my sentences… nyahaha… i’m using it again… well, i just think they’re cute… i’m weird, yes…)